Routine

I hate my routine

I hate rarely ever seeing anyone

I hate talking to myself more than people and them via text, AIM, late at night, for an hour, or if they respond

I hate always driving

I hate this constant stress on my head

I hate getting up early

I hate saying I can't do anything because I have "school, tutoring, work"

I hate when I do have time, no one else does, they are at work, school or doing "something better" 

I hate not eating a proper diet, and on-the-go food, and shoving things down my throat because I don't have time

I hate not having self-relaxtion time

I hate worrying all the time, I always think something is wrong, someone is going to get hurt.

I hate being tired and when I do go out I fall asleep

I don't like using the word hate but it quickly and simply describes how I feeling without describing how "i really don't like.."

I'm so bothered, I feel lonely, and kind of confused, I have things on track but not. I don't feel successful.

I want to sleep

I want to not worry

I want to read a book for the sake of reading

I want to make lavish meals

I want to go on vacation

I want to go in a sauna and come out when my skin feels like a prune.

I want to sit in a car or a bus as it drives and just look out the window and just listen to music

I want to not think a lot and just listen to other people, but literally listen

I'm just so angry right now grr.  What'sa girl to do?